PagesTornFromMyDementedMind

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This isn’t anything concrete, anything that makes sense! These are just pieces, fragments, whispers and snippets of the voices in my head. The conversations, debates, and dialogues I have on my own . . . They are LOUD and NEVER-ENDING!

This is nothing special… this will not necessarily grow into a piece on its own, some fragments may build enough mass to stand alone. . .
But for all intents and purposes… These are just the ramblings of a mad man, a broken being!

The intend is to merely let spill the over-flow of madness on this page . . .and perhaps _________________

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 When every seed thought takes root
All you have is a forest of chaos
And I meditate in the eye of this maelstrom!
Will you sit with me

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If you think you are FINE
Nay, if you BELIEVE YOU ARE FINE!?!
Then I truly pity you!!!

NO ONE IS FINE…
WE ARE ALL OF US BROKEN!
How can we not be!?
Borne into a broken world,
Raised by broken families,
Befriended, loved by broken people…
It is inevitable!
I am certain were we all to undergo psych evaluations…
Oh well, that won’t help much,
Majority of us would likely still be diagnosed as “Socially Acceptable” or whatever quack term they use.

For some it is naught
But a hair-line fracture,
For others a chip here and there,
For others still
Certain pieces are lost in the rubble.

There is no reversal, no remedy
So I say
Accept…Acknowledge…Embrace!
I AM BROKEN!
I am not shy or ashamed to say so!
This is what keeps me fighting.
Not to be healed or fixed,
I don’t hope for that…
I fight to become strong,
Harder to break again,
Maybe even hard enough to protect others.

I AM BROKEN!
EVERY PIECE, EVERY FRAGMENT of me!

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So I killed the man.
My humanity,
The emotions, feelings,
I stopped the pain.
The problem with this is,
Risen man always rises
Stronger, more determined
More human!

Now every single day
Every waking moment,
Is a fight to keep him at bay.

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I will let you hate me
Because I love you!

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I HOPE LOVE DIES

I hope love dies
It is all a compromise
A façade, a sham
A choice for
What works best,
What is least complicated.

I can’t love how I want
I can’t be loved how I want
Just what I am given,
Just all that I ‘can’ give!

I hope love fucking dies
Yes I love,
I am loved,
But this shit,
How it’s supposed to work
It isn’t working for me

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always remember…

never forget the names
never forget the faces

never forget the smiles you wrought
never forget the tears you dropped

never forget the flesh you tore
never forget the soul you poured

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